tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-80448659524958807502011-12-22T17:26:37.571-08:00I've won the battle of infertility, I have my sweetpea...now I'm just trying to keep my sanity with all the new ups and downs of motherhood.Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.comBlogger601100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-165813263677370932011-12-22T17:21:00.001-08:002011-12-22T17:26:37.585-08:00

gosh here we are again YEARS later and I'm still feeling the pain that is infertility. My little girl is now 3 yrs old....turned 3 in September and she's am amazing beautiful person. Never could I have imagined having a daughter so bright, smart, loving, empathetic as her. She amazes me every single day and I thank God for her everysingle day. But we are it again, trying to have another baby and

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-48441235010380357512010-04-30T21:32:00.000-07:002010-04-30T21:49:46.869-07:00

It's infertility awareness week, and every year I am reminded of the battle I had to fight w/tears and pain to come out a winner. It's a battle that has left me with many scars and although they have closed up they will never ever heal. I still want another child but at times I am hesitant to get back into the ring w/my adversary, I'm downright frightened that this next time i may not win. I

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-89127011602378984482010-02-24T09:26:00.000-08:002010-02-24T09:57:45.275-08:00

Ah, where to start? Putting my career on hold to become a SAHM has been cut short, well sorta. I have gone back to work part time, 20 hrs/week, with a different government agency; but doing somewhat the same duties as before. Financially this will help us tremendously and in a small way I am looking forward to going back to the workforce again. But.....I can't help but feel guilty for two reasons

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-58075481209936123372010-01-31T20:36:00.000-08:002010-01-31T20:36:20.787-08:00

I look at this little person who no longer resembles a baby and can't help but think that time is just flying by, and her babyhood has passed by in an instant. Officially the books all say Sofie is not a toddler yet...but she's not an infant either. She's in an akward stage of leaving babyhood and entering toddlerhood, she's ALMOST 17 mths old in five days!!!! I am a bit sad at this transition

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-21528802680206452132009-12-22T17:04:00.000-08:002009-12-22T17:21:54.065-08:00

So i have to vent for just a bit...I got news that a friend of mine ( who I've been seriously considering breaking the friendship with..but that is another later post) is having a boy. So this doesn't really bother me persay but the fact that she's been complaining about having to get on insulin for this pregnancy YET not doing anything to better the situation. She supposedly had her diabetes

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-48623508432625951542009-12-12T22:28:00.000-08:002009-12-12T22:48:18.731-08:00

These days I find myself looking at my daughter and wondering where did the time go? She's now 15mths old and it seems all her "babyness" is almost gone and I know have a toddler. I find myself yearning for another baby, but I'm scared. I'm scared to try again and have it fail and get my hopes up again only to get my period another month. I will start acupuncture once again to see if I can

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-37776794143751019852009-11-03T18:59:00.000-08:002009-11-03T18:59:15.628-08:00

Hands down this Halloween I was able to enjoy all the trick/treating in a whole new light. I always have fun decorating, giving out candy etc but this year I got to see it in a whole new light thanks to this lil lion. I hope everyone had a lovely halloween and ate LOTS of candy I know our household did. LOL. I also want to thank everyone that wrote in to say they understand how hard it is to be

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-22569278016641406562009-09-21T16:50:00.000-07:002009-09-21T17:14:41.906-07:00

So, no one ever tells you that when you decide to become a stay at home mom, that the following happens: A. you feel alienated from the "adult" world" B. Time/dates no longer matter. Because you forget the day of the week it is and what time it is!C. You start to envy those that actually get up and go the salt mines, hey they earn a paycheck!D. Your day consists of watching some educational TV (

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-42133404522377043272009-08-20T07:48:00.000-07:002009-08-21T06:44:39.651-07:00

i must admit I do love staying at home with this little bundle of joy. she's growing up so fast it's not funny. here she is playing in her car while mommy does some gardening....she's walking now..oh boy! everyday she and I discover some new adventure and it brightens up my day.

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-29439289246883774072009-07-30T18:53:00.000-07:002009-07-30T19:00:43.664-07:00

So as of today, I have 2 more days of work. I know I am very blessed that I will be able to stay home with this little ball of energy whom we affectionately call "terror-dactyl" I realize not many working mothers are able to stay at home and I try not take this opportunity lightly. We went back and forth for months on whether it was going to be worth it staying home or just finding a different

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-72035677974416402382009-07-05T12:02:00.000-07:002009-07-05T12:03:02.890-07:00

Happy 4th of July! Boy it sure was scorching humid day! We went down to south Texas to visit my family; sofia got to see all her cousins, aunts, uncles, grandma and great grandma! The trip itself was not a good one.....ugh......that will be for another post all together. But we stayed so Sofia could see her grandma, great greatma and cousins. So I leave you with this picture of Sofia and Dean

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-25872323122460326212009-06-22T14:32:00.000-07:002009-06-22T14:33:32.005-07:00

 Happy Belated father' day! Just wanted to post a pic of the reason why it's Luke's first father's day. Hope everyone had a great one. 

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-18989108117425585592009-06-16T09:52:00.000-07:002009-06-16T10:00:30.581-07:00

I am counting the days...literally on my calender...until I can stay home w/Miss Sofia. She's grown so fast, sometimes I feel as if I blinked and one day she was a immobile newborn and now she's a VERY mobile infant. Her birthday is just around the corner and I thank God I will be home with her by then. I know there is so much I've missed these months she has been in daycare but I know there's

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-46036624543750708802009-04-20T10:24:00.000-07:002009-04-20T10:33:50.057-07:00

Sofie has gone through so many milestones in my mind both big and small, it's getting harder and harder as I see my little girl grow up. She's crawling now and pulling herself up when she's in her crib and when is crawling around the living room and comes up to the sofa. I'm in total amazment that little human is here with us, just thinking about it that last year I was pregnant and wondering

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-56811713531955428422009-02-25T13:16:00.001-08:002009-02-25T13:28:45.504-08:00

Well I must say I don't know how this happened so fast, one day I was holding a couple minutes old newborn and just staring at her and awe and now..........I have a 24 week old infant who is sporting two bottom teeth and rolling from her tummy to her back like a pro. Where did the time go?! I see Sofie and she's still so young, such a baby YET she's grown so much and everyday she learns a new

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-39613191079046930202009-01-25T15:12:00.000-08:002009-01-25T15:36:14.682-08:00

All of us have a dream, I'm sure. Some of us have "big" dreams others have "small" dreams. I think my dream is neither.....it's a dream that has grown out of the desire in my heart for my daughter. You see I'm dreaming that sometime this year I can become an a stay at home mom. I've told a couple of friends and family this dream and I get either of these two reactions: " really? are you sure?

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-21692934923230240932008-12-27T13:07:00.000-08:002008-12-27T13:08:07.235-08:00

happy belated Christmas. This christmas was the best christmas ever, hands down. It was way more meaningful and even though Sofia got presents it was fine. She was the best present Luke and I got. I hope all had a joyous day.

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-30591277676840851602008-12-07T18:05:00.000-08:002008-12-07T18:12:52.238-08:00

so this is a late post, but I can't believe Sofia is now 3 mths old! I browsed her pictures from when she was born and when we brought her home and she's changed so much! everyday she's getting bigger and bigger and even though I'm happy she's healthy and meeting all the milestones on target I can't help but feel a little sadness as well. I'm a little sad that in some ways she is becoming more

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-21503359125135708942008-11-30T16:02:00.000-08:002008-11-30T16:02:34.799-08:00

Certaintly without a doubt this was the best Thanksgiving ever. Sofia is the biggest thanks we have in our lives this year. We give thanks also for our jobs, friends, health but she's our biggest thanks. Last year was so lonely, I can't believe this year we have this little one here with us, and we get to spend every day with her.

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-67179786636732293082008-11-26T07:43:00.000-08:002008-11-26T10:17:22.837-08:00

Sofia has started daycare.........sigh.....yes it's been hard for me to allow someone other than myself or Luke to watch her. I've been very blessed I must say in that I was able to enjoy all to myself for about 9 weeks and then handed the reins over to her daddy who had her till she just last Monday for about 2 weeks. It did help the transition in that I didn't miss her as much when I went back

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-6263248257015739732008-09-25T15:40:00.000-07:002008-09-25T15:41:55.776-07:00

At last............motherhood. I'm tired, elated, in awe of this wonderful miracle that I see sleeping in her crib while I write this post. I now understand fully what the other bloggers felt when they wrote how in awe they were to see their baby how it was surreal. Yes, I understand now fully because you see when I see this precious tiny person who not too long ago was growing inside me, and to

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-8492900209349314152008-07-08T07:46:00.000-07:002008-07-08T07:48:06.202-07:00

I’ve been so bad about keeping up with this blog, and it’s not because I have NOTHING to write about it’s the lack of energy I have these days. I’m now nearing the end of this wonderful journey and before we know it, Luke and I will embark on a new journey as parents. I’ve been blessed in that I have no real “complaints” about aches and pains, I’m thinking it’s not cause I don’t’ have them but I

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-70233198428499114872008-06-01T08:22:00.001-07:002008-06-01T08:50:27.158-07:00

It seems with only 15 more weeks to go in this pregnancy, I'm starting to see things in a different light now. We went to see my family in McAllen Tx and it was great to see them all but boy was it HOT and HUMID!!!! OMG I spent more time inside than outside, but Luke played with the kids the whole time kicking the ball, jumping around....yea to them he is the uncle that is a kid just like them.

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-14891949002817896962008-05-11T09:18:00.000-07:002008-05-11T09:44:08.987-07:00

I cant' believe it, I finally get to celebrate mother's day. I'll admit it's scary and I don't have a live baby in my arms but this Mother's day is different from other years that have come and gone, I have a live baby growing inside. I've started to feel our little one more now, he/she seems to be very active right as I get up till about noonish and then again in the evening until I go to bed. I

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-88524590560485200792008-05-01T05:57:00.000-07:002008-05-01T06:15:03.984-07:00

I have a post I want to share of my sono from last week and pictures (that hopefully came out clear enough) but this post seemed to weigh heavy on my heart and I couldn't bring myself to write about all that when the anniversary of loosing sweetpea was coming up. I have mixed feelings this year about it, could be because last year I was not pregnant and felt hopeless that my one chance had come

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-57482086549703832672008-04-23T04:45:00.000-07:002008-04-23T05:58:46.934-07:00

well it's one more day to go till we find out if we will have little girl or boy.....we have names picked out but I'm not yet sharing maybe I'll share later. I'm nervous that something might go wrong, so nervous it's stressing me out and I've not had a good night's rest for the past 2 weeks! I'm having nightmares that the baby is dead, missing a limb, has no brain etc....I wake up in a sweat and

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-48922257389457336762008-04-13T16:03:00.000-07:002008-04-13T18:08:28.494-07:00

Sometime about 3 weeks ago I started noticing cramps and soreness. I was alarmed at first because this being the farthest I've ever been pregnant I thought "oh no miscarriage". This however my dear readers is actually round ligament pain. I'm not sure why the say in all the books I've read "you will experience slight discomfort in your abdominal area due to the ligaments stretching" ..... yea

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-59866893772739099522008-04-05T17:22:00.000-07:002008-04-05T17:22:22.671-07:00

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-82793014225027370782008-04-05T17:21:00.000-07:002008-04-05T17:21:19.729-07:00

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-28513779534561335042008-04-05T16:56:00.000-07:002008-04-05T17:22:36.155-07:00

Sorry I've been MIA but nothing much has been going on until today.........Happy Birthday to me! I'm sure I don't have to mention how extra special this day is for me. I can't tell you how many birthdays after my last loss that I wished I'd be either pregnant by next birthday OR have a baby in my arms. Well, one of those wishes has come true and let me tell you it's surreal and awesome! So far

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-48726783165504237892008-03-12T17:00:00.000-07:002008-03-12T17:28:45.527-07:00

I never in my wildest dreams ever thought I'd get this far if I ever became pregnant. Wait, who am I kidding, I NEVER thought I'd ever get pregnant. Personally I feel as if I'm almost about to cross a milestone. I'm not a runner but I guess if I were it would probably feel as if I'm maybe a 1/3 of the way to the finish line. Of coarse along the way I've had my aches and discomforts, emphasis on

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-19770850891359450682008-03-01T17:14:00.000-08:002008-03-01T17:33:27.108-08:00

This past week really was not the best for me, it started off with me having a cold that got worse as the week progressed. Not only was I miserable I had to call into work which in turn will eat up some of my time I have been planning on using for maternity leave, but I was too sick to even get out of bed so it was a necessary evil. The highlight of my week was Thursday, my OB appt. We heard the

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-81072814791525321962008-02-24T11:18:00.000-08:002008-02-24T11:33:44.460-08:00

My next OB appt is this coming Thursday and even though I'm trying my best..........I'm so very nervous. I had an episode about a week ago that scared me very much. I went to the bathroom and noticed some brown spotting on my underwear I called the 24 hr Nurse line and luckily got a nurse she'd asked if I'd done anything straneous and was I having any kind of cramping......uh no...but I did have

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-86604703959685595902008-02-14T07:02:00.000-08:002008-02-15T13:09:01.039-08:00

I realize that some may not want to celebrate or acknowledge today especially if you are going through the struggles of IF, but I still want to send out positive thoughts to everyone and lots of hugs.Well I gotta say from my last post, I am feeling better much better after venting out to a friend of mine I met at RESOLVE. Plus that day I happen to have my acupuncture appt so I took the time while

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-77071674451325890512008-02-07T10:14:00.000-08:002008-02-07T10:26:06.534-08:00

So today I found out that SIL is having a boy. My reaction to this news.............devasted. Ok I could blame it on my wacky pregnancy hormones as to why I'm jealous, my culture that I wanted to be one to have the first boy, or I can just be very frank about why I'm upset about it. But before I go into that I'd like to say in my defense yes this makes me look like a bitch when I say I'm not

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-24410974957873233452008-02-03T06:55:00.000-08:002008-02-03T07:11:51.952-08:00

We saw the heartbeat last Thursday and even though we didn't get to hear it on the doppler it was enough for us. I'm still very much in awe and it doesn't seem like this is happening to me.......guess all those years of infertility have really messed with my head and such. My Dr was able to finally pinpoint how far along I am, due to me having PCOS, I didn't even know when I ovulated. She said at

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-43624587241375414642008-01-23T16:41:00.000-08:002008-01-23T16:58:11.110-08:00

Nothing new to report, I still don't "feel" pregnant aside from the sometimes cramping, sore boobs and lower back really it feels like I'm about to start my period. On occasion too I get indigestion and constipation with certain foods. I'm very very scared about my upcoming Dr appointment on the 31st of this mth. I'm not sure how I will handle it if I get bad news. My worst case scenario in my

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-12668655329971339022008-01-19T06:06:00.000-08:002008-01-19T06:14:17.918-08:00

that's what I said after my sonogram was done..............it was yesterday and according to what the tech saw.....I am 4weeks and 3 days. We saw a gestational sac w/yolk. It was in my opinion the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen and a long time coming too. I keep pinching myself thinking this is all a dream.........I was supposed to do IVF#2 in April.......but yet now I see the beginning of

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-11785206237747065882008-01-16T04:30:00.001-08:002008-01-16T17:14:38.184-08:00

I swear I can literally hear the clock ticking in my house! Gosh all this waiting is agony and I can't help but think as an infertile we do ALOT of waiting but lack of patience. We wait to try naturally if we'll concieve, we wait during IUI or IVF if that cycle is a BFP or BFN, then we wait after we get the good news to see if this pregnancy will indeed stick. Well right now I'm in the last part

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-72707473125329993722008-01-13T08:36:00.000-08:002008-01-13T09:18:14.661-08:00

ok so what I thought was AF on CD36 turned out it wasn't.....I POAS today and wonders of wonders it was positive. I don't know what to think people.....my RE told me it would be impossible for me to get pregnant again in my one tube that was left since it was closed off but yet...........two pink lines say otherwise. I'm cautious........extremely so and detached only because I'm preparing myself

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-84931093680715292922008-01-10T04:36:00.000-08:002008-01-10T05:46:21.426-08:00

Well finally AF decided to come, I realized I have this love/hate relationship with her. I hate when she is late and it's not cause I'm pregnant but cause of PCOS screwing up my cycle again. I love when she comes because I also know for a fact that I ovuluated and AF came on time with 30ish days. And well that for me is when PCOS has not won that month. But alas, this cycle it kicked my butt,

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-19310728797926276082008-01-06T09:42:00.000-08:002008-01-06T10:05:42.387-08:00

Well folks, it's now CD33 and no AF!!!! I POAS but it was of coarse negative....of coarse why would I even think it may be positive? Well aside from AF being late my boobs are majorly majorly sore and I'm very sensitive to smells right now and I'm very emotional. I hate that all these signs could be early pg signs too.....ah it's no wonder we drive ourselves nuts analyzing every little twitch

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-90548039577950049652008-01-04T10:06:00.000-08:002008-01-04T13:18:40.858-08:00

I just got an email from one of the ladies that goes to RESOLVE and she's just had her 3rd loss. She's been updating all of us and when she got the news that she'll have to have an D&C again well I thought it would be better if I just called to tell her hey she's not alone in her sorrow cause I know what it means to be in those shoes to get a positive and get your hopes and BAM it's ripped from

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-31344585610440162682008-01-01T07:19:00.000-08:002008-01-01T08:50:23.098-08:00

I am sure I'm not the only one overjoyed with 2007 being over.....good riddance! In retrospect though, 2007 was not as horrible as 2006.......both my ectopic and failed IVF happened in that year. But 2007 would have been the year I would have either been a newly first time mom or been pregnant awaiting to become a newly first time mom. So yea 2007 was bitter sweet in some other ways to but it was

Ivonnehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00438670648342329996noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8044865952495880750.post-55738550497655931292007-12-27T18:47:00.000-08:002007-12-27T19:01:46.213-08:00

Well this year we decided to be at home for Christmas and cook brisket and invite some friends over. It turned out nicer than I thought....we had a great time. I so was not looking forward to going to visit my in laws the next day only cause SIL was gonna be there....but hey gotta take one for the team I suppose. Oh by the way SIL is farther along than we all thought....she thought she was 8wks

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So this past Friday one of our dogs had to be rushed to the veterinary emergency clinic. I had planned to enjoy my 1/2 day off from work to try to get over my sinus infection but, as luck would have it didn't happen that way. DH and I were sitting down enjoying a TV show when I got up to get something from the kitchen, well as usual Rudy, Abbey and Maddock all followed me. I turned around and

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sorry this is such a late post but I have not been in the best of moods these holidays....but I wanted to do this post from an idea JJ @ reproductive jeans had. Basically it's to explain who inspired you to write a blog about your struggles with infertility and such.Mine was Larissa over at waiting womb, I had the honor of first meeting her in our local central texas RESOLVE group. Her story

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OK so I'll start first off by saying the things I am thankful and then I'll finish this post with things I am not thankful for. so without further ado......here are my post thanksgiving list of thank you and thank you nots......1. My husband who makes me laugh and tries to keep me optomistic about us having babies one day.2. My job, yea the salary is ok and the work is steady so I'm able to

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I was doing better but THAN a couple of days ago DH was telling me about SIL (grrr) and how she's SO sick from nauseausness......and I just gave him this look. And then he says "you know they've been trying to get pregnant since last Nov. and just got pregnant now" my response? "ok, but I still can't forget her comment, and that makes it even worse since she was struggling to get pregnant WTF to

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well I found out after coming home from my acupuncture (which was probably the highlight of my day) that my SIL is pregnant.damnit. You know I should have known or at least been prepared to recieve the news but what hurts me too is the fact that she was scared of telling me. I think hubby made it even harder for her to to do that cause every freakin time he talked to her, he kept asking her "so

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Well this month marks the 1yr anniversary of my failed IVF cycle. I didn't think it would bother me as much as the anniversary of losing sweetpea 1 yr ago in May. But it did.....and it does not help that this past week really sucked @ work. So this week I was late to work, discovered I was on empty ( hubby forgot to gas up the car), our other car broke down ( it'll be expensive to fix), I get a

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Ok so I thought the protocol for IVF included a whole pharmacy. But I've come to the realization that I'm back to the protocol again sans IVF. Huh????? Right now DH & I have decided to put off the next IVF cycle till march 2008 to focus on getting my body healthy through acupuncture (getting my cycles regular), diet and to save up for the next IVF cycle. Thing is that with acupuncture come herbs;

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Ok so to keep my mind off IF cause we all know how stressful it can make life. I have come up w/a couple of things I think I should start doing while I wait to start my IVF cycle and while I am out of the game and am “benched”. 1. I should do some volunteering. I tried to and even signed up for some volunteer opportunities but got the run around on it. The volunteer job was where I would

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Part of my acupuncture treatment is to take my daily BBT and so far i can't get to go up higher than 97.01 and the lowest it's been is 96.6 yup.......but today i was at 97.4....yipee! but AF still has not come!!!! wtf!!!!so the last couple of weeks I've not blogged because I've been busy reading and commenting on other's blogs. And well also for two other reason (at least in my head) no one

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Ok so today I am still over the moon because in one mth I have lost 2 pds and 4 inches!!! I know to some it's not much but to me it's the first steps towards getting healthy to help me conceive. I called hubby yesterday and was so excited and then later on while he was at work ( works night shift) he txts me "hey there twiggy how's it going?" Listen by no means am I Nicole Richie I'm more along

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So what has happened since last time? Well BIG news....well at least to me...I got AF!!!! no no I will not be starting a cycle or anything like that but it's really important and I'll tie it all in if you keep reading. Luke & I started thinking about looking into acupuncture and he found a link on another blogger's page. So we made the appointment and it was for the 27Th of July which happens to

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well my sister's visit went better than expected. I can say I was enjoyed her company and that of my nieces and nephew and brother in law. Yes I did have to be after them to close that door because of the AC, turn off the bathroom or bedroom lights when no one is there, who left another opened can of coke etc....but it was good to see them. I spent so much more time with them than when we usually

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I am tired.....of still not getting my period. it's now been 5 days late!! and I took a PT but it was negative. I want to tell my body "hey get witht the program here! S**t or get off the pot already so I can start my accupressure or accupuncture exercises!!!"I am tired...of feeling sick now going on a week. Normally allergies don't get me but they are kicking my butt this time. I wake up every

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well I took a pgncy test and it was negative. that bugs me only cause I still don't know why I have not gotten my period. The thought has crossed my mind that I am stressed that my sister is coming up for visit for 2 1/2 days. OK so that is not very long but she's got 4 kids all under the age of 8!!! I know how ironic that I want kids badly yet I'm stressing about my nieces and nephew coming for

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that is how I feel today. I was supposed to get my period on Thursday but as far as today I have the big fat NOTHING. I took a pregnancy test this morning and I got a result but it's a moot point when I lost the box with directions to the results. Pretty dumb not to mention frustrating. I'm not trying to get my hopes up YET only cause I don't want my hopes to come crashing down. This is something

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