all the wonders

i must admit I do love staying at home with this little bundle of joy. she's growing up so fast it's not funny. here she is playing in her car while mommy does some gardening....she's walking now..oh boy! everyday she and I discover some new adventure and it brightens up my day.

3 down ... 2 to go....

So as of today, I have 2 more days of work. I know I am very blessed that I will be able to stay home with this little ball of energy whom we affectionately call "terror-dactyl" I realize not many working mothers are able to stay at home and I try not take this opportunity lightly. We went back and forth for months on whether it was going to be worth it staying home or just finding a different daycare center, one that incorporated the spanish language; but it was either too expensive or too long of a wait. It's very important for us that she learn to speak Spanish and learn about her culture, it will be easier with me being home to teach her all of that. A part of me feels guilty for putting my career on hold for a few years but with all the suffering, longing and spending we did to have her, we know it's the right decision. Everyday she learns something new and I'm just amazed and a little sad that I was not the one to teach her to clap and to wave for example. But....I did teach her to say "teta" which in spanish means bottle. So it's bittersweet, I'm putting a part of my life on hold in order to become a stay at home mom, with a child that over a year ago I thought we'd never have.

happy 4th of July

Happy 4th of July! Boy it sure was scorching humid day! We went down to south Texas to visit my family; sofia got to see all her cousins, aunts, uncles, grandma and great grandma! The trip itself was not a good one.....ugh......that will be for another post all together. But we stayed so Sofia could see her grandma, great greatma and cousins. So I leave you with this picture of Sofia and Dean her, other cousin who does live near us, it was both his mom and his first time going to South TX. Oh and in this picture, Sofia is just one day shy of turning 10 months...how cool is that?!

first of many father's days

 Happy Belated father' day! Just wanted to post a pic of the reason why it's Luke's first father's day. Hope everyone had a great one. 

counting the days...

I am counting the days...literally on my calender...until I can stay home w/Miss Sofia. She's grown so fast, sometimes I feel as if I blinked and one day she was a immobile newborn and now she's a VERY mobile infant. Her birthday is just around the corner and I thank God I will be home with her by then. I know there is so much I've missed these months she has been in daycare but I know there's still so much more ahead to learn with her. I had mixed feelings about taking a hiatus from my career but having her has shifted my priorities...and my priority is now her. She is such a happy baby and we hope that it's because we have shown her safety and love. She loves to explore and crawl away from us constantly looks back to make sure we are close by. I can't wait to discover new things with her, to teach new things and have our mother/daughter relationship grow.

crawling machine

Sofie has gone through so many milestones in my mind both big and small, it's getting harder and harder as I see my little girl grow up. She's crawling now and pulling herself up when she's in her crib and when is crawling around the living room and comes up to the sofa. I'm in total amazment that little human is here with us, just thinking about it that last year I was pregnant and wondering what she looked like, what she'd be like....i get to experience it now. I know the following is what EVERY mother says about their child but i think she's very smart. She LOVES to imitate and does it so very well. She's constantly learning new things EVERY day sometimes we can't keep up with it. One day she may not know how to clap and just moves her hands and the next day she's clapping. lately she's been making raspberries and yelling whenever she gets excited...yes we call it her pterdactyl call. Everyday she's looking more like a little person then a baby. I'm at a cross roads right now; excited about what she will become yet still fighting the ache of my heart having to allow her independence so she can grow. she makes me and her father laugh so much everyday it's hard to believe what life was with out her. i tell Luke we were probably very boring until she came along. LOL. Funny how Luke and I thought we were in trouble when she learned to roll over but now she can sit AND crawl...O i think trouble is not even the half of it.

Two tooth, rolling over wonder.....

Well I must say I don't know how this happened so fast, one day I was holding a couple minutes old newborn and just staring at her and awe and now..........I have a 24 week old infant who is sporting two bottom teeth and rolling from her tummy to her back like a pro. Where did the time go?! I see Sofie and she's still so young, such a baby YET she's grown so much and everyday she learns a new skill OR masters a milestone. It's bittersweet for me.....bitter cause I feel like my baby is growing up too fast and won't need me anymore and sweet because every new milestone, every new skill she learns is a new adventure. I miss the days when I could rock her to sleep or just have her sleep on my chest and she was such a little thing; she was wearing premie onesies! Now? oh she's barely going to be 6mths and wears clothes for a 9mth old. Luke doesn't share my heartache as far as the "growing pains" he keeps saying ' she's still our baby and always will be' I know I know yet I can't help it, she's becoming more independent from us each day. When she doesn't want to be help because she prefers to scoot on her playmat or jump in her jumperoo I often get a lump in my throat and my eyes get teary. I prayed and cried for this little miracle girl to come into our lives and I'm just not yet ready for her to master her next milestone: crawling. I'm hoping it'll be weeks...months till she starts to crawl but when it does happen all I can do is just encourage and support her with love and keep reminding myself "she's still my baby and always will be"